On December 4, 2010, the world changed. Who noticed? My fourth son, John Blaise, was due on April 24, 2011—Easter Sunday that year. Instead, I went into premature labor at 20 weeks, the first Friday in December to a backdrop of twinkle lights. Our little boy still had a heartbeat…
Capture Your Grief Day 17: Time
It has been 1,048 days since John Blaise was born still. I have survived 44 days since losing Alexander. But that is chronos. God lives in kairos. So do my tiny ones.
Capture Your Grief Day 13: Book
We are a society of independence and self-help. Take a stroll down the aisles of any bookstore and note how many titles are devoted to do-it-yourself and fixing yourself. From plumbing to dieting, there’s a “For Dummies” book for just about anything. Just about. There is no such book as…
Capture Your Grief Day 15: Wave of Light
Today, October 15th, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Tonight, all around the world at 7pm* in our respective time zones, we whose children have left this world before us light candles in our babies’ honor, creating a “wave of light” around the globe. In honor of John…
Capture Your Grief Day 11: Emotional Triggers
I have put off writing this post for four days now. It’s not easy to talk about those little things that can set you over the edge. Looking at the list of prompts for this “Capture Your Grief” month, this is the one that makes me feel most vulnerable. After all,…