It is midnight the eve before I see you on the ultrasound screen for the first time. I am SO excited… and apparently pretty nervous too. I have been fighting physical symptoms of anxiety all weekend. I would much rather deal with pregnancy symptoms, if only because they are easier to explain.
Churchgoing
I have a secret to share. I regularly get choked up at church. I have for years. No, I don’t break down into tears. But my voice will catch in a song or response. Not to judge, but I have come to believe that if you are a regular churchgoer…
Focus. Or lack thereof.
I can think of 10 things off the top of my head that I should be doing. Blogging was not in the top five.
Seven Deadly Sins and Willy Wonka
I’m not very proud of the fact that my husband and I let our boys watch a lot of movies. They probably don’t spend more time in front of the TV than most kids, but they do watch a lot of movies. And while I think it would be good…
Of Dreams and Bad Sleep
Six mornings ago I woke in mourning. I had miscarried a second child. I was sure of it. I knew I had been dreaming. But the line between wraith and reality had been blurred. I no longer knew where fears-turned-dreams ended and memories began. What is it called when you…