Oops. I accidentally posted this before I had finished it. Or titled it. I decided not to go back and add to the original post. Except to tag and title it. — JAC
Dear Lightning Bug,
It is midnight the eve before I see you on the ultrasound screen for the first time. I am SO excited… and apparently pretty nervous too. I have been fighting physical symptoms of anxiety all weekend. I would much rather deal with pregnancy symptoms, if only because they are easier to explain.
You’re apparently about the size of a plum right now. At 10.5 weeks, I can still wear regular pants, but I unbutton them if I sit for any length of time. Yesterday I pulled out my bin of maternity clothes to take stock, in particular to look for a certain pair if capris. It was erie to see certain pieces of clothes and realize how many had memories attached: an outfit I wore to my baby shower, one I wore to a poetry reading, the top I wore when I found I was in preterm labor with one son, a top I wore to the NICU to visit the other.
How exciting! I’ll be thinking of you. Will Jonathan be able to attend…will the boys go too?
Cat will watch the boys while I go alone with my 2 pages of notes top discuss with the doctor.Jonathan has work.