CHAPBOOK UPDATE: Like shaving too close with a dull razor.

So, I had another meeting with my editor last night. Seems my beautiful book was putting us over budget, so we needed to cut about 8-10 pages. Ouch.

She suggested removing 3 pieces that took 4 pages. Then we doubled up more poems (cutting an additional 3). But I couldn’t bare to pull one of the 3 she suggested, so that meant we’d only cut 2 poems (and 2 pages). I suggested another page for cutting, so we were back down to 7 cut, still not enough. And then I couldn’t handle one of the pairings she’d suggested — it was too crowded. So we were back up to 6 cut. So we moved the pub credits to the end of the TOC, the acknowledgments to my bio page, and my “Disclaimer” poem to the Editor’s Notes page.

Ick.

Anne is going to make a mock up with our changes and we’ll go from there. I’m afraid that it’s far too crowded. So I’m still trying to figure which poem(s) I can stand to pull.

The comfort is in knowing I’m only pulling them from this manuscript, not throwing them out or something like that. I can still publish them later or send them to journals in the mean time. It’s just hard. Especially since the collection really is very tight as it stands. I feel like I’m playing Jenga and any piece I pull has the potential to make the collection collapse.

Still, what a learning experience!

In other news, I think we’ve decided on the stock for the cover. It’s a bright yellow, brighter than I thought I’d like, but the black tones it down lots. (Yes, the cover is black/grayscale on yellow.)

And I still have to write my frickin bio and acknowledgments.

But it’s all good.

LEMONADE & RUMORS Chapbook Progress: Table of Contents

Just had a meeting with my editor last night. We ordered the poems, pulled a few more and got together a tentative Table of Contents (excluding stuff like acknowledgments & bio & title page). So, really it’s just a list of the poems that will likely be included in the order they’ll be found.

Because both my editor and the printer are a little bit overwhelmed with projects at the moment, it looks like the release will unfortunately be pushed to May. Not a big deal except that I really was looking forward to having some of “National Poetry Month” (April) to promote it. But it’s cool. Having it out in May will make it a nice birthday gift to myself.

whiny entry

I’m tired, feeling yucky, hungry, tired and miserable. DH had the flu all weekend, so I got to play nurse to him while taking care of munchkin and myself by myself. Fortunately “myself” wasn’t doing too bad this weekend, but unfortunately I had been planning on having DH help with the kid so I could use the weekend to get WORK done. No such luck. Now today, once DH is back out the door at work, I feel like crap — pregnant crap, not flu crap at least — and STILL am getting NOTHING accomplished. I’m feeling burnt out and am LOATHING the idea of having to go to work tomorrow. I’ve been a freaking emotional mess today and am being an awful mom leaving munckin in his crib long after his nap. He’s entertaining himself and hasn’t cried to get out, but really I owe him some attention, a diaper change, and dinner.

I’m so tired. And damnit, I’m crying again.